Thursday, March 31, 2005
Economics of Life 101
Random Prelude
Have you been outside lately? Have you been enjoying your day? Have you seen a mob of painted lady butterflies? Have you been attacked by a painted lady butterfly? Have you smashed into few painted lady butterflies w/your car on your way to work/school/home/errands/etc. ? If you have...you are not alone! Lots of Californians are experiencing the same phenomenon as you! Such an "attack of the butterflies" is due to the luring of the plentiful rainfall and lush plant growth which causes the butterflies to fly from inland deserts and Mexico towards greener pastures in Oregon/Washington. Huge migrations happen only once or twice a decade when the conditions are just right! So catch the flow and enjoy the fun....set a trap and net yourself a few butterflies...it won't be as easy after this time! To order some already caught/smashed butterflies...call this number now! 1-800-But-a-fly
Lesson Begins
For those of you who have been through the hellish Econ classes should know the Law of Diminishing Returns. As a background for the ones that don't know or the ones that sleep through the classes or the ones that finds education as a piece of crap...Law of Diminishing Returns simply states: if one factor of production is increased while the others remain constant, the overall returns will relatively decrease after a certain point...which in lamen term is that as more of an input is applied, each additional unit produces less and less additional output. The principle, first thought to apply only to agriculture, was later accepted as an economic law underlying all productive enterprise.
Now that you have a brief background from Dr. Chi...I will proceed to inform you how such a law applies to real life situations....
Productivity obeys the Law of Diminishing Return. You must think...well...duh... Hold your horses...I will get to my point. When you are at work or at school...You do work or study (ok..no brainer right there). In the beginning...you will try to be productive to impress the boss or study a lot to obtain good grades. It is a rather fulfilling sensation..the feeling that you were being "productive". You keep performing tasks and want to have the fulfillment all the time! However, as time goes on, the sweet sensation of being productive disappears and is replaced by the bitterness left by the excessive work load or over nerding. Thus, implying that you work output increases, as defined by the phrase of "being productive", while others (work load, study materials) remains constant, the overal returns (the fulfilling sensation) will relatively decrease after a certain amount of time. Now...you just dread being productive and want to be lazy.
If our productivity follows the Law of Diminishing Returns and we'll get tired of being "productive"...what's the point then?
Way to combat: DONT be productive on a daily basis except for perhaps one day out of the week..this way, you will experience the complete and total fulfillment of being produtive every time you try it and you only have to work one day of the week! Based on the Law of Diminishing Returns...this is the only way we will have increased spur of work output while other remain constant and STILL have an increasing overal returns! GENIUS!
I am practicing my own theory right now by blogging at work....let's see how well this works out...
Disclaimer: This is only MY theory. I am not responsible if you indeed chose to follow such a hypothesis and is fired by your boss, failed a miderm/final/class, and obtained "bum" status.
Have you been outside lately? Have you been enjoying your day? Have you seen a mob of painted lady butterflies? Have you been attacked by a painted lady butterfly? Have you smashed into few painted lady butterflies w/your car on your way to work/school/home/errands/etc. ? If you have...you are not alone! Lots of Californians are experiencing the same phenomenon as you! Such an "attack of the butterflies" is due to the luring of the plentiful rainfall and lush plant growth which causes the butterflies to fly from inland deserts and Mexico towards greener pastures in Oregon/Washington. Huge migrations happen only once or twice a decade when the conditions are just right! So catch the flow and enjoy the fun....set a trap and net yourself a few butterflies...it won't be as easy after this time! To order some already caught/smashed butterflies...call this number now! 1-800-But-a-fly
Lesson Begins
For those of you who have been through the hellish Econ classes should know the Law of Diminishing Returns. As a background for the ones that don't know or the ones that sleep through the classes or the ones that finds education as a piece of crap...Law of Diminishing Returns simply states: if one factor of production is increased while the others remain constant, the overall returns will relatively decrease after a certain point...which in lamen term is that as more of an input is applied, each additional unit produces less and less additional output. The principle, first thought to apply only to agriculture, was later accepted as an economic law underlying all productive enterprise.
Now that you have a brief background from Dr. Chi...I will proceed to inform you how such a law applies to real life situations....
Productivity obeys the Law of Diminishing Return. You must think...well...duh... Hold your horses...I will get to my point. When you are at work or at school...You do work or study (ok..no brainer right there). In the beginning...you will try to be productive to impress the boss or study a lot to obtain good grades. It is a rather fulfilling sensation..the feeling that you were being "productive". You keep performing tasks and want to have the fulfillment all the time! However, as time goes on, the sweet sensation of being productive disappears and is replaced by the bitterness left by the excessive work load or over nerding. Thus, implying that you work output increases, as defined by the phrase of "being productive", while others (work load, study materials) remains constant, the overal returns (the fulfilling sensation) will relatively decrease after a certain amount of time. Now...you just dread being productive and want to be lazy.
If our productivity follows the Law of Diminishing Returns and we'll get tired of being "productive"...what's the point then?
Way to combat: DONT be productive on a daily basis except for perhaps one day out of the week..this way, you will experience the complete and total fulfillment of being produtive every time you try it and you only have to work one day of the week! Based on the Law of Diminishing Returns...this is the only way we will have increased spur of work output while other remain constant and STILL have an increasing overal returns! GENIUS!
I am practicing my own theory right now by blogging at work....let's see how well this works out...
Disclaimer: This is only MY theory. I am not responsible if you indeed chose to follow such a hypothesis and is fired by your boss, failed a miderm/final/class, and obtained "bum" status.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
March Madness
March...what an excruciating month. Wow...the last time I updated this brand new blog was close to a month ago! My apologies for depriving you from some interesting reads or after dinner jokes. You must be thinking...there MUST be "something" going on for me to neglect you all like this. Indeed...lots have happened in the past month. I intentionally neglected my blog because the only thing I would write about are my anxieties and how pharm schools are evil in making me wait FOREVER! Also, because the more I talk about it, the more nervous I become. Instead of letting you all share my fear and anticipations...I'd rather for you all to share my results.
This past month has been nothing but a roller coaster ride for Aileen. I was practically a zombie who lives each day for some fresh meat (well..in my case...the acceptance/rejection letters). That was all that I could think about and talk about. I am certain that a lot of my friends are probably sick of my "i hate waiting" or "why isnt it here" talks by now. Every acceptance or every rejection I heard from others is like a dagger through my heart and a pinch on my nerves. Everyone tells me...Aileen...don't worry...you'll get in. Not that I didn't want to listen to the public, yet when your future's on the line...you cant help BUT to worry. I wanted this badly because I have something to prove, to myself, to my family, to my skeptics, and to my friends. I wanted to prove I am capable in achieving my dream and not just all talks, to prove to myself that I am just as good as the others and all that hard work are not for nothing, and also to prove to others that I made the right decision. It was a bold move on my part to change my career plan from hardcore premed to pharmacy...so I wanted to see if I can follow through with this plan.
It was three weeks into March already with nothing in sight...no news...no NOTHING! I was beginning to feel hopeless...fearing rejections and the disapproval of my performance by these top institutions. I yearned for acceptance and accredidations by these schools. Partly because I am utterly prideful of myself and my abilities, I do not and will not allow my pride to obliterate. With each days passing....I was beginning to wear down...I even attempted on fine tuning the details of my back up plan (u're all gonna laugh...but I was sooooo thinking about going back to Asia and become a flight attendant if this whole "pharm" deal doesnt work out). March was driving me NUTS!!! (doesnt help with actual "March Madness" going on...dont like my pool going down the drain..which it already did with the loss of Syracuse >=( *shakes fist in air*) My emotion goes up and down...this month is PMSing X 10! (stay away from aileen!!! run! run for your lives!!!)
At last...I received my first piece of mail this past saturday.....I GOT ACCEPTED INTO USC!!!!! =D finally..the wait is over...I WILL be a pharmacist! i was eccstatic...but it's still my 2nd choice nontheless. the school I was waiting to hear back was nowhere in sight. USC was nice, but I really could see myself being part of the SF community and be a student of UCSF. Not to mention I really liked UCSF's program...I feel it could help me achieve what I wanted to accomplish in my lifetime and challenge my intellect every way possible. Not to mention i REALLY liked the yay area, particularly Frisco. It's definitely nice to have a back up though. I was content and settled with the result, this is probably it...I will be a Trojan.
just last nite....i received a letter from UCSF (technically I received a phonecall..because my mails are sent to my dear Michelley's place due to certain cicumstances with my address change before my spectacular vacation)
and the verdict.........
I GOT INTO UCSF!!!!!
finally...my 1st choice...the place i wanted to be in o so BADLY...my dream school...my goals...are all right in front of me. i am living in the world of surrealism....I am eccstatic...I cant stop smiling....I am the LUCKIEST and HAPPIEST girl right now! this high...is better than anything you can ever imagine (weed, alcohol, orgasm, you name it!) when you want something SOOOOO badly..and you got it...this sensation is WONDERFUL!
Pharm school totally played with my emotions this month. Dang...it's finally all over....the next chapter of my life awaits. What's next? bring it on!!!! but for now...share my joy and PAAAAARRRRRTTTTTAAAAAAYYYY!!!!!! >=D woohoo!!! yay!!!! mwa ha ha ha ha ha ha...!!!! hurray!!!!! Aileen YOU DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!! \(^o^)/
PS. I received an awesome gift from my sister...an ipod mini! Helen..u're the best! i heart my sister, I heart my family, I heart my friends, I heart my new ipod, and I heart life! (o^.^o)
This past month has been nothing but a roller coaster ride for Aileen. I was practically a zombie who lives each day for some fresh meat (well..in my case...the acceptance/rejection letters). That was all that I could think about and talk about. I am certain that a lot of my friends are probably sick of my "i hate waiting" or "why isnt it here" talks by now. Every acceptance or every rejection I heard from others is like a dagger through my heart and a pinch on my nerves. Everyone tells me...Aileen...don't worry...you'll get in. Not that I didn't want to listen to the public, yet when your future's on the line...you cant help BUT to worry. I wanted this badly because I have something to prove, to myself, to my family, to my skeptics, and to my friends. I wanted to prove I am capable in achieving my dream and not just all talks, to prove to myself that I am just as good as the others and all that hard work are not for nothing, and also to prove to others that I made the right decision. It was a bold move on my part to change my career plan from hardcore premed to pharmacy...so I wanted to see if I can follow through with this plan.
It was three weeks into March already with nothing in sight...no news...no NOTHING! I was beginning to feel hopeless...fearing rejections and the disapproval of my performance by these top institutions. I yearned for acceptance and accredidations by these schools. Partly because I am utterly prideful of myself and my abilities, I do not and will not allow my pride to obliterate. With each days passing....I was beginning to wear down...I even attempted on fine tuning the details of my back up plan (u're all gonna laugh...but I was sooooo thinking about going back to Asia and become a flight attendant if this whole "pharm" deal doesnt work out). March was driving me NUTS!!! (doesnt help with actual "March Madness" going on...dont like my pool going down the drain..which it already did with the loss of Syracuse >=( *shakes fist in air*) My emotion goes up and down...this month is PMSing X 10! (stay away from aileen!!! run! run for your lives!!!)
At last...I received my first piece of mail this past saturday.....I GOT ACCEPTED INTO USC!!!!! =D finally..the wait is over...I WILL be a pharmacist! i was eccstatic...but it's still my 2nd choice nontheless. the school I was waiting to hear back was nowhere in sight. USC was nice, but I really could see myself being part of the SF community and be a student of UCSF. Not to mention I really liked UCSF's program...I feel it could help me achieve what I wanted to accomplish in my lifetime and challenge my intellect every way possible. Not to mention i REALLY liked the yay area, particularly Frisco. It's definitely nice to have a back up though. I was content and settled with the result, this is probably it...I will be a Trojan.
just last nite....i received a letter from UCSF (technically I received a phonecall..because my mails are sent to my dear Michelley's place due to certain cicumstances with my address change before my spectacular vacation)
and the verdict.........
I GOT INTO UCSF!!!!!
finally...my 1st choice...the place i wanted to be in o so BADLY...my dream school...my goals...are all right in front of me. i am living in the world of surrealism....I am eccstatic...I cant stop smiling....I am the LUCKIEST and HAPPIEST girl right now! this high...is better than anything you can ever imagine (weed, alcohol, orgasm, you name it!) when you want something SOOOOO badly..and you got it...this sensation is WONDERFUL!
Pharm school totally played with my emotions this month. Dang...it's finally all over....the next chapter of my life awaits. What's next? bring it on!!!! but for now...share my joy and PAAAAARRRRRTTTTTAAAAAAYYYY!!!!!! >=D woohoo!!! yay!!!! mwa ha ha ha ha ha ha...!!!! hurray!!!!! Aileen YOU DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!! \(^o^)/
PS. I received an awesome gift from my sister...an ipod mini! Helen..u're the best! i heart my sister, I heart my family, I heart my friends, I heart my new ipod, and I heart life! (o^.^o)
Monday, March 07, 2005
Three's Company
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1) Aileen
2) Aichi
3) Aiya or Chica or AiyaChica (essentially the same names)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1) AiyaChica828
2) AandH123
3) aichihuahua (umm...possible future sn???)
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) my bountiful adrenaline (does it ever end?)
2) always happy happy or smiley smiley!
3) my "twisted" way of thinking (it's almost an understatement)
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) a bit TOO energetic -_-"
2) thinks too much *scratches head*
3) too much pride!
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1) Chinese
2) Taiwanese
3) Chinese + Taiwanese, or Chinese + Chinese, or Taiwanese + Taiwanese
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1) Any form of insects!!!
2) Thunderstorm (yea yea yea..i'm a sissy)
3) YOU!!! >=D
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1) caffeine!!! (the best part of waking up...is folger[coffee] in your cup!)
2) shower (it's a MUST every nite)
3) Sleep (i'm insomniac no more! i <3>
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1) AE shirt
2) blue jeans
3) Swarovski necklace (courtesy of senorita Chi, aka..my mommy!)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
1) Jimmy Eat World
2) The Used
3) Yellowcard
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1) "Work" - Jimmy Eat World
2) "Wu Yuan" - David Tao
3) "Kiss no ondo" - Wyolica
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1) more traveling!
2) Sugar Daddy (extra sweetener pweeaaaasse!)
3) Donavan's (ah...steak...*drool*)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1) lots of laughter
2) to have the BEST time in the world doing absolutely NOTHING at all
3) that "connection"...you know...THE connection
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1) I eat more than a dude
2) I desire world domination
3) I <3 Work
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1) Gorgeous smile (you know..the crest smiled accompanied by mesmirizing eyes *dreamy sigh*)
2) AWESOME abs
3) Slim physique (but fit nonetheless)
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1) waking up in the morning without thinking about smashing up the alarm clock
2) be productive at work
3) sit down and do absolutely NOTHING
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1) Gymming! (or any type of physical activity for that matter)
2) Eating! (mang...i'm hungry...)
3) Singing/Dancing (I got music, I got rhythmn, I got uhhh...my invisible man...who can ask for anything more!)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1) Eat lunch (food...ah...*drool*)
2) Sleep (caffeine's not working...-_-")
3) Go home (refer to #2)
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1) Drug dealer (legalized...I think...(o.O) )
2) Corruptor of our future generation (they'll all think like i do..mwa ha ha ha ha ha)
3) American Idol! (it can happen! thus will mark the downfall of the music industry)
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1) Japan
2) Fiji
3) Australia
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1) Doh (i swear that's Bart's REAL name)
2) Bah (i'm can almost be certain that it's a form of Indian name)
3) Blah (i invented this name? what a sad kid i'll have)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1) Travel the world!
2) cure "some" type of disease
3) be the BEST sugar mama i can be for everyone! =D
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1) You...who's reading
2) You...who's my friend
3) You...the stranger
1) Aileen
2) Aichi
3) Aiya or Chica or AiyaChica (essentially the same names)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1) AiyaChica828
2) AandH123
3) aichihuahua (umm...possible future sn???)
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) my bountiful adrenaline (does it ever end?)
2) always happy happy or smiley smiley!
3) my "twisted" way of thinking (it's almost an understatement)
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1) a bit TOO energetic -_-"
2) thinks too much *scratches head*
3) too much pride!
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1) Chinese
2) Taiwanese
3) Chinese + Taiwanese, or Chinese + Chinese, or Taiwanese + Taiwanese
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1) Any form of insects!!!
2) Thunderstorm (yea yea yea..i'm a sissy)
3) YOU!!! >=D
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1) caffeine!!! (the best part of waking up...is folger[coffee] in your cup!)
2) shower (it's a MUST every nite)
3) Sleep (i'm insomniac no more! i <3>
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1) AE shirt
2) blue jeans
3) Swarovski necklace (courtesy of senorita Chi, aka..my mommy!)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists at the moment):
1) Jimmy Eat World
2) The Used
3) Yellowcard
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1) "Work" - Jimmy Eat World
2) "Wu Yuan" - David Tao
3) "Kiss no ondo" - Wyolica
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1) more traveling!
2) Sugar Daddy (extra sweetener pweeaaaasse!)
3) Donavan's (ah...steak...*drool*)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1) lots of laughter
2) to have the BEST time in the world doing absolutely NOTHING at all
3) that "connection"...you know...THE connection
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1) I eat more than a dude
2) I desire world domination
3) I <3 Work
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1) Gorgeous smile (you know..the crest smiled accompanied by mesmirizing eyes *dreamy sigh*)
2) AWESOME abs
3) Slim physique (but fit nonetheless)
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1) waking up in the morning without thinking about smashing up the alarm clock
2) be productive at work
3) sit down and do absolutely NOTHING
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1) Gymming! (or any type of physical activity for that matter)
2) Eating! (mang...i'm hungry...)
3) Singing/Dancing (I got music, I got rhythmn, I got uhhh...my invisible man...who can ask for anything more!)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1) Eat lunch (food...ah...*drool*)
2) Sleep (caffeine's not working...-_-")
3) Go home (refer to #2)
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1) Drug dealer (legalized...I think...(o.O) )
2) Corruptor of our future generation (they'll all think like i do..mwa ha ha ha ha ha)
3) American Idol! (it can happen! thus will mark the downfall of the music industry)
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1) Japan
2) Fiji
3) Australia
THREE KID'S NAMES:
1) Doh (i swear that's Bart's REAL name)
2) Bah (i'm can almost be certain that it's a form of Indian name)
3) Blah (i invented this name? what a sad kid i'll have)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1) Travel the world!
2) cure "some" type of disease
3) be the BEST sugar mama i can be for everyone! =D
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1) You...who's reading
2) You...who's my friend
3) You...the stranger
Friday, March 04, 2005
Out With the Old
Weee~~~ My first posting in blogger's blog! why decide to change? maybe I just want to be different? (o.O) hehe.. =P I'm actually allowed to mess around with a lot of things on blogger's blog...and because of my ADD nature...i like to change things constantly (too impatient to mess w/xanga...all those color matching schemes...blah! too lazy). Besides...need some new things to occupy my boredom while i'm at work! So....what to write as my first post....
As many of you know...I work in a lab. My recent exeperiment is actually an in vivo study. To be less technical, I injected mice w/breast cancer cells that'll give them fatty tumors in their mammory fat pad (mouse boobs???). Injections went smoothly and I started to feel quite attached to those little things (more so the power trip...I can do WHATEVER I want with them and they cant do a THING! mwa ha ha ha ha...wait..i mean..poor little mice =P ).
Today, as I went on my little routine check on my mice...one of them died! I noticed it was sick yesterday but didnt think it's gonna die on me. Such an instance brought me great distraught (uh..aileen...u're mission's to kill them...so u mean to tell me u care??) because I did not know the cause of its death...most likely it's due to infection during the injection process. They're gonna die anywayz and I will be the murderer when the time comes...but just didnt anticipate it. Partly because I just lost one experimental subject (dang it...my experiment's going downhill already!!!). Another is because, it was in distress. Not that when the others develop tumors on them they're gonna feel any better...but at least they'll live on until I give them a swift death (care to know the process? talk to me AFTER meals).
Partly due to my sentimental nature...I grow attached to things rather quickly. When they leave, it generally has an effect on me. Makes me wonder tho...if I feel sad when the little mouse died on me unexpectedly...how can I handle my emotions if I work with cancer patients?? (for those of you who dont know...i plan on being a cancerizer...the professional cancer fighter! =D ) perhaps that is WHY I want to work in the cancer field...so I can see the beauty of human's will to live and be a part of their fight. I want to do my best so I don't have to see them die. I will not be the one to "cure" cancer (you cannot cure cancer...TRUST ME...all those ads/news about cancer curing are all lies i tell ya! awww...did i destroy your hope? my apologies..you naivette =P) but i want to at least be able to provide patients with ammunitions so they can at least put a dent in this microscopic terrorist (fire in the hole~~~~!!!)
Little mousy will now be happily living in "mouseville" (mouse heaven according to Tom Hanks in the Green Mile). Death awaits for all of us in the end (for u aileen..more like the devil's waiting). Live a colorful life and have no regrets. The world ends when we die...why not make this the best world there is? Aileen will for sure see you all on the flip side when the death bell chimes! (aka..see you in hell! hmm...probably that'll just be me...DOH! XP)
what a boring first post...i tried (what do you expect? it's not like i EVER write anything profound anywayz!)
You have just survived one hellish blog. Thank you, the Devil awaits your re-visit..Mwa ha ha ha ha
As many of you know...I work in a lab. My recent exeperiment is actually an in vivo study. To be less technical, I injected mice w/breast cancer cells that'll give them fatty tumors in their mammory fat pad (mouse boobs???). Injections went smoothly and I started to feel quite attached to those little things (more so the power trip...I can do WHATEVER I want with them and they cant do a THING! mwa ha ha ha ha...wait..i mean..poor little mice =P ).
Today, as I went on my little routine check on my mice...one of them died! I noticed it was sick yesterday but didnt think it's gonna die on me. Such an instance brought me great distraught (uh..aileen...u're mission's to kill them...so u mean to tell me u care??) because I did not know the cause of its death...most likely it's due to infection during the injection process. They're gonna die anywayz and I will be the murderer when the time comes...but just didnt anticipate it. Partly because I just lost one experimental subject (dang it...my experiment's going downhill already!!!). Another is because, it was in distress. Not that when the others develop tumors on them they're gonna feel any better...but at least they'll live on until I give them a swift death (care to know the process? talk to me AFTER meals).
Partly due to my sentimental nature...I grow attached to things rather quickly. When they leave, it generally has an effect on me. Makes me wonder tho...if I feel sad when the little mouse died on me unexpectedly...how can I handle my emotions if I work with cancer patients?? (for those of you who dont know...i plan on being a cancerizer...the professional cancer fighter! =D ) perhaps that is WHY I want to work in the cancer field...so I can see the beauty of human's will to live and be a part of their fight. I want to do my best so I don't have to see them die. I will not be the one to "cure" cancer (you cannot cure cancer...TRUST ME...all those ads/news about cancer curing are all lies i tell ya! awww...did i destroy your hope? my apologies..you naivette =P) but i want to at least be able to provide patients with ammunitions so they can at least put a dent in this microscopic terrorist (fire in the hole~~~~!!!)
Little mousy will now be happily living in "mouseville" (mouse heaven according to Tom Hanks in the Green Mile). Death awaits for all of us in the end (for u aileen..more like the devil's waiting). Live a colorful life and have no regrets. The world ends when we die...why not make this the best world there is? Aileen will for sure see you all on the flip side when the death bell chimes! (aka..see you in hell! hmm...probably that'll just be me...DOH! XP)
what a boring first post...i tried (what do you expect? it's not like i EVER write anything profound anywayz!)
