Tuesday, March 22, 2005
March Madness
March...what an excruciating month. Wow...the last time I updated this brand new blog was close to a month ago! My apologies for depriving you from some interesting reads or after dinner jokes. You must be thinking...there MUST be "something" going on for me to neglect you all like this. Indeed...lots have happened in the past month. I intentionally neglected my blog because the only thing I would write about are my anxieties and how pharm schools are evil in making me wait FOREVER! Also, because the more I talk about it, the more nervous I become. Instead of letting you all share my fear and anticipations...I'd rather for you all to share my results.
This past month has been nothing but a roller coaster ride for Aileen. I was practically a zombie who lives each day for some fresh meat (well..in my case...the acceptance/rejection letters). That was all that I could think about and talk about. I am certain that a lot of my friends are probably sick of my "i hate waiting" or "why isnt it here" talks by now. Every acceptance or every rejection I heard from others is like a dagger through my heart and a pinch on my nerves. Everyone tells me...Aileen...don't worry...you'll get in. Not that I didn't want to listen to the public, yet when your future's on the line...you cant help BUT to worry. I wanted this badly because I have something to prove, to myself, to my family, to my skeptics, and to my friends. I wanted to prove I am capable in achieving my dream and not just all talks, to prove to myself that I am just as good as the others and all that hard work are not for nothing, and also to prove to others that I made the right decision. It was a bold move on my part to change my career plan from hardcore premed to pharmacy...so I wanted to see if I can follow through with this plan.
It was three weeks into March already with nothing in sight...no news...no NOTHING! I was beginning to feel hopeless...fearing rejections and the disapproval of my performance by these top institutions. I yearned for acceptance and accredidations by these schools. Partly because I am utterly prideful of myself and my abilities, I do not and will not allow my pride to obliterate. With each days passing....I was beginning to wear down...I even attempted on fine tuning the details of my back up plan (u're all gonna laugh...but I was sooooo thinking about going back to Asia and become a flight attendant if this whole "pharm" deal doesnt work out). March was driving me NUTS!!! (doesnt help with actual "March Madness" going on...dont like my pool going down the drain..which it already did with the loss of Syracuse >=( *shakes fist in air*) My emotion goes up and down...this month is PMSing X 10! (stay away from aileen!!! run! run for your lives!!!)
At last...I received my first piece of mail this past saturday.....I GOT ACCEPTED INTO USC!!!!! =D finally..the wait is over...I WILL be a pharmacist! i was eccstatic...but it's still my 2nd choice nontheless. the school I was waiting to hear back was nowhere in sight. USC was nice, but I really could see myself being part of the SF community and be a student of UCSF. Not to mention I really liked UCSF's program...I feel it could help me achieve what I wanted to accomplish in my lifetime and challenge my intellect every way possible. Not to mention i REALLY liked the yay area, particularly Frisco. It's definitely nice to have a back up though. I was content and settled with the result, this is probably it...I will be a Trojan.
just last nite....i received a letter from UCSF (technically I received a phonecall..because my mails are sent to my dear Michelley's place due to certain cicumstances with my address change before my spectacular vacation)
and the verdict.........
I GOT INTO UCSF!!!!!
finally...my 1st choice...the place i wanted to be in o so BADLY...my dream school...my goals...are all right in front of me. i am living in the world of surrealism....I am eccstatic...I cant stop smiling....I am the LUCKIEST and HAPPIEST girl right now! this high...is better than anything you can ever imagine (weed, alcohol, orgasm, you name it!) when you want something SOOOOO badly..and you got it...this sensation is WONDERFUL!
Pharm school totally played with my emotions this month. Dang...it's finally all over....the next chapter of my life awaits. What's next? bring it on!!!! but for now...share my joy and PAAAAARRRRRTTTTTAAAAAAYYYY!!!!!! >=D woohoo!!! yay!!!! mwa ha ha ha ha ha ha...!!!! hurray!!!!! Aileen YOU DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!! \(^o^)/
PS. I received an awesome gift from my sister...an ipod mini! Helen..u're the best! i heart my sister, I heart my family, I heart my friends, I heart my new ipod, and I heart life! (o^.^o)
Congrats hommie!! Never had a doubt in my mind that you wouldn't get in.
congrats aileen! - josh
Wow. Congrats Eileen :)
And I just realized I spelled your name wrong...
cool! two of your top schools...
knowing you and ur ginormous pride/ego tho, u'd probably want to get into the other schools...just so u can reject them! hahaha
oops..that was me ^
congratumalations (:
oh cool congrats! welcome to the part of nor-cali where parking doesn't exist. muahahahaha...
i'm still up in the berkeley/oakland area. hit me up and we'll kick it =)
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You have just survived one hellish blog. Thank you, the Devil awaits your re-visit..Mwa ha ha ha ha
This past month has been nothing but a roller coaster ride for Aileen. I was practically a zombie who lives each day for some fresh meat (well..in my case...the acceptance/rejection letters). That was all that I could think about and talk about. I am certain that a lot of my friends are probably sick of my "i hate waiting" or "why isnt it here" talks by now. Every acceptance or every rejection I heard from others is like a dagger through my heart and a pinch on my nerves. Everyone tells me...Aileen...don't worry...you'll get in. Not that I didn't want to listen to the public, yet when your future's on the line...you cant help BUT to worry. I wanted this badly because I have something to prove, to myself, to my family, to my skeptics, and to my friends. I wanted to prove I am capable in achieving my dream and not just all talks, to prove to myself that I am just as good as the others and all that hard work are not for nothing, and also to prove to others that I made the right decision. It was a bold move on my part to change my career plan from hardcore premed to pharmacy...so I wanted to see if I can follow through with this plan.
It was three weeks into March already with nothing in sight...no news...no NOTHING! I was beginning to feel hopeless...fearing rejections and the disapproval of my performance by these top institutions. I yearned for acceptance and accredidations by these schools. Partly because I am utterly prideful of myself and my abilities, I do not and will not allow my pride to obliterate. With each days passing....I was beginning to wear down...I even attempted on fine tuning the details of my back up plan (u're all gonna laugh...but I was sooooo thinking about going back to Asia and become a flight attendant if this whole "pharm" deal doesnt work out). March was driving me NUTS!!! (doesnt help with actual "March Madness" going on...dont like my pool going down the drain..which it already did with the loss of Syracuse >=( *shakes fist in air*) My emotion goes up and down...this month is PMSing X 10! (stay away from aileen!!! run! run for your lives!!!)
At last...I received my first piece of mail this past saturday.....I GOT ACCEPTED INTO USC!!!!! =D finally..the wait is over...I WILL be a pharmacist! i was eccstatic...but it's still my 2nd choice nontheless. the school I was waiting to hear back was nowhere in sight. USC was nice, but I really could see myself being part of the SF community and be a student of UCSF. Not to mention I really liked UCSF's program...I feel it could help me achieve what I wanted to accomplish in my lifetime and challenge my intellect every way possible. Not to mention i REALLY liked the yay area, particularly Frisco. It's definitely nice to have a back up though. I was content and settled with the result, this is probably it...I will be a Trojan.
just last nite....i received a letter from UCSF (technically I received a phonecall..because my mails are sent to my dear Michelley's place due to certain cicumstances with my address change before my spectacular vacation)
and the verdict.........
I GOT INTO UCSF!!!!!
finally...my 1st choice...the place i wanted to be in o so BADLY...my dream school...my goals...are all right in front of me. i am living in the world of surrealism....I am eccstatic...I cant stop smiling....I am the LUCKIEST and HAPPIEST girl right now! this high...is better than anything you can ever imagine (weed, alcohol, orgasm, you name it!) when you want something SOOOOO badly..and you got it...this sensation is WONDERFUL!
Pharm school totally played with my emotions this month. Dang...it's finally all over....the next chapter of my life awaits. What's next? bring it on!!!! but for now...share my joy and PAAAAARRRRRTTTTTAAAAAAYYYY!!!!!! >=D woohoo!!! yay!!!! mwa ha ha ha ha ha ha...!!!! hurray!!!!! Aileen YOU DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!! \(^o^)/
PS. I received an awesome gift from my sister...an ipod mini! Helen..u're the best! i heart my sister, I heart my family, I heart my friends, I heart my new ipod, and I heart life! (o^.^o)
Congrats hommie!! Never had a doubt in my mind that you wouldn't get in.
congrats aileen! - josh
Wow. Congrats Eileen :)
And I just realized I spelled your name wrong...
cool! two of your top schools...
knowing you and ur ginormous pride/ego tho, u'd probably want to get into the other schools...just so u can reject them! hahaha
oops..that was me ^
congratumalations (:
oh cool congrats! welcome to the part of nor-cali where parking doesn't exist. muahahahaha...
i'm still up in the berkeley/oakland area. hit me up and we'll kick it =)
Thank you!
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