Friday, March 04, 2005
Out With the Old
Weee~~~ My first posting in blogger's blog! why decide to change? maybe I just want to be different? (o.O) hehe.. =P I'm actually allowed to mess around with a lot of things on blogger's blog...and because of my ADD nature...i like to change things constantly (too impatient to mess w/xanga...all those color matching schemes...blah! too lazy). Besides...need some new things to occupy my boredom while i'm at work! So....what to write as my first post....
As many of you know...I work in a lab. My recent exeperiment is actually an in vivo study. To be less technical, I injected mice w/breast cancer cells that'll give them fatty tumors in their mammory fat pad (mouse boobs???). Injections went smoothly and I started to feel quite attached to those little things (more so the power trip...I can do WHATEVER I want with them and they cant do a THING! mwa ha ha ha ha...wait..i mean..poor little mice =P ).
Today, as I went on my little routine check on my mice...one of them died! I noticed it was sick yesterday but didnt think it's gonna die on me. Such an instance brought me great distraught (uh..aileen...u're mission's to kill them...so u mean to tell me u care??) because I did not know the cause of its death...most likely it's due to infection during the injection process. They're gonna die anywayz and I will be the murderer when the time comes...but just didnt anticipate it. Partly because I just lost one experimental subject (dang it...my experiment's going downhill already!!!). Another is because, it was in distress. Not that when the others develop tumors on them they're gonna feel any better...but at least they'll live on until I give them a swift death (care to know the process? talk to me AFTER meals).
Partly due to my sentimental nature...I grow attached to things rather quickly. When they leave, it generally has an effect on me. Makes me wonder tho...if I feel sad when the little mouse died on me unexpectedly...how can I handle my emotions if I work with cancer patients?? (for those of you who dont know...i plan on being a cancerizer...the professional cancer fighter! =D ) perhaps that is WHY I want to work in the cancer field...so I can see the beauty of human's will to live and be a part of their fight. I want to do my best so I don't have to see them die. I will not be the one to "cure" cancer (you cannot cure cancer...TRUST ME...all those ads/news about cancer curing are all lies i tell ya! awww...did i destroy your hope? my apologies..you naivette =P) but i want to at least be able to provide patients with ammunitions so they can at least put a dent in this microscopic terrorist (fire in the hole~~~~!!!)
Little mousy will now be happily living in "mouseville" (mouse heaven according to Tom Hanks in the Green Mile). Death awaits for all of us in the end (for u aileen..more like the devil's waiting). Live a colorful life and have no regrets. The world ends when we die...why not make this the best world there is? Aileen will for sure see you all on the flip side when the death bell chimes! (aka..see you in hell! hmm...probably that'll just be me...DOH! XP)
what a boring first post...i tried (what do you expect? it's not like i EVER write anything profound anywayz!)
We will miss you in xanga land =T Be sure to still visit us =D
-Yip
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You have just survived one hellish blog. Thank you, the Devil awaits your re-visit..Mwa ha ha ha ha
As many of you know...I work in a lab. My recent exeperiment is actually an in vivo study. To be less technical, I injected mice w/breast cancer cells that'll give them fatty tumors in their mammory fat pad (mouse boobs???). Injections went smoothly and I started to feel quite attached to those little things (more so the power trip...I can do WHATEVER I want with them and they cant do a THING! mwa ha ha ha ha...wait..i mean..poor little mice =P ).
Today, as I went on my little routine check on my mice...one of them died! I noticed it was sick yesterday but didnt think it's gonna die on me. Such an instance brought me great distraught (uh..aileen...u're mission's to kill them...so u mean to tell me u care??) because I did not know the cause of its death...most likely it's due to infection during the injection process. They're gonna die anywayz and I will be the murderer when the time comes...but just didnt anticipate it. Partly because I just lost one experimental subject (dang it...my experiment's going downhill already!!!). Another is because, it was in distress. Not that when the others develop tumors on them they're gonna feel any better...but at least they'll live on until I give them a swift death (care to know the process? talk to me AFTER meals).
Partly due to my sentimental nature...I grow attached to things rather quickly. When they leave, it generally has an effect on me. Makes me wonder tho...if I feel sad when the little mouse died on me unexpectedly...how can I handle my emotions if I work with cancer patients?? (for those of you who dont know...i plan on being a cancerizer...the professional cancer fighter! =D ) perhaps that is WHY I want to work in the cancer field...so I can see the beauty of human's will to live and be a part of their fight. I want to do my best so I don't have to see them die. I will not be the one to "cure" cancer (you cannot cure cancer...TRUST ME...all those ads/news about cancer curing are all lies i tell ya! awww...did i destroy your hope? my apologies..you naivette =P) but i want to at least be able to provide patients with ammunitions so they can at least put a dent in this microscopic terrorist (fire in the hole~~~~!!!)
Little mousy will now be happily living in "mouseville" (mouse heaven according to Tom Hanks in the Green Mile). Death awaits for all of us in the end (for u aileen..more like the devil's waiting). Live a colorful life and have no regrets. The world ends when we die...why not make this the best world there is? Aileen will for sure see you all on the flip side when the death bell chimes! (aka..see you in hell! hmm...probably that'll just be me...DOH! XP)
what a boring first post...i tried (what do you expect? it's not like i EVER write anything profound anywayz!)
We will miss you in xanga land =T Be sure to still visit us =D
-Yip
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