Sunday, September 25, 2005
Still Alive
Wow...time sure passed by quick. School started for me and craziness have dawned on me once again. I almost forgot what it was like to be a student once again. PharmD program ain't a joke...it's a lot more intense than i anticipated. I've only had 1 1/2 weeks of school and i'm behind already! sheesh! nerdom will be my status once again and you all will see me less and less on online. I appologize for fpossible urture infrequent blogging. I will however report to you whenever i get a chance to. The good thing is...i'm really enjoying my life here in SF and really got to know some wonderful people. I'm glad i'm here and I'm pumped with what i will do! with all that said...how you all doing?!? *wink*
I have never felt so out of control of my life until lately. I feel like a drunk driver, believing i'm driving a straight line...when in fact...i'm just swerving left and right. a lot of curve ball's been thrown at me during the past month. Some wonderful...some...umm..not so great. I have established new career goals and found a new purpose in life. I refined and created new connection to the previously almost non-existent love territory. It's all very strange...being the organized person that I am. I am never known as a risk taker nor am i known for my adventurous nature (i am crazy...but safely first!). However, whatever craziness that happened to me...made me feel...perhaps some chaos is good. It makes you aware that you're still "living" and spice up the mundane routines a bit. Regardless of how chaotic things are...things are falling into place quite nicely. Sorta like...tossing dices...even tho it's random and u dont know what numbers will show...but heck..i'm winning! mwa ha ha ha ha.. I must have done something right...if only i know what that is.... (o.O) I understand i'm perhaps being fairly "vague" with this entry....but I can't really quite put my hands on what's going on. I am lost, confused, scared, and yet...at the same time...liberated, happy, and content. i really should lower my gear and be more susceptible to changes. open my heart up a bit more and be accepting to the options around me. guarding myself and playing it "safe" should be a thing of the past. give certain things a shot...even as a blind woman...u never know unless you try right? let's just hope i dont crash and burn..heh..
On another note...SF's been sunny! i've never been so happy in seeing the sun. Oh sunshine...how i miss you so...how i love you so...and how i want you so...will you please stay for just a while longer?!? you socal folks....i envy you...dont take the sun and the warmth for granted! you're all blessed in comparison to majority of the world suffering various weather conditions that are less than ideal (btw...prayer goes out to victims in Katrina and another prayer goes out to the people who's suffering Rita...and you noticed...how they name all the hurricanes females?!? i think it's rather fitting =P)
i'm tired...i'm exhausted...my immune system's protesting for the lack of sleep...and i'm eccstatic about what's to come... =D
Simple Pleasures in Life
1) When you find out someone's thinking about you
2) Being silly and making faces
3) Watching others be silly and make a fool out of themselves
4) Potlucks (heck..any food makes me happy =D)
5) When you catch the muni just in time
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You have just survived one hellish blog. Thank you, the Devil awaits your re-visit..Mwa ha ha ha ha
I have never felt so out of control of my life until lately. I feel like a drunk driver, believing i'm driving a straight line...when in fact...i'm just swerving left and right. a lot of curve ball's been thrown at me during the past month. Some wonderful...some...umm..not so great. I have established new career goals and found a new purpose in life. I refined and created new connection to the previously almost non-existent love territory. It's all very strange...being the organized person that I am. I am never known as a risk taker nor am i known for my adventurous nature (i am crazy...but safely first!). However, whatever craziness that happened to me...made me feel...perhaps some chaos is good. It makes you aware that you're still "living" and spice up the mundane routines a bit. Regardless of how chaotic things are...things are falling into place quite nicely. Sorta like...tossing dices...even tho it's random and u dont know what numbers will show...but heck..i'm winning! mwa ha ha ha ha.. I must have done something right...if only i know what that is.... (o.O) I understand i'm perhaps being fairly "vague" with this entry....but I can't really quite put my hands on what's going on. I am lost, confused, scared, and yet...at the same time...liberated, happy, and content. i really should lower my gear and be more susceptible to changes. open my heart up a bit more and be accepting to the options around me. guarding myself and playing it "safe" should be a thing of the past. give certain things a shot...even as a blind woman...u never know unless you try right? let's just hope i dont crash and burn..heh..
On another note...SF's been sunny! i've never been so happy in seeing the sun. Oh sunshine...how i miss you so...how i love you so...and how i want you so...will you please stay for just a while longer?!? you socal folks....i envy you...dont take the sun and the warmth for granted! you're all blessed in comparison to majority of the world suffering various weather conditions that are less than ideal (btw...prayer goes out to victims in Katrina and another prayer goes out to the people who's suffering Rita...and you noticed...how they name all the hurricanes females?!? i think it's rather fitting =P)
i'm tired...i'm exhausted...my immune system's protesting for the lack of sleep...and i'm eccstatic about what's to come... =D
Simple Pleasures in Life
1) When you find out someone's thinking about you
2) Being silly and making faces
3) Watching others be silly and make a fool out of themselves
4) Potlucks (heck..any food makes me happy =D)
5) When you catch the muni just in time
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