Sunday, August 07, 2005
Miss Me?
After a long wait and anticipation...I have once again resumed blogging. Have I forgotten about my blog? No....it's been on my mind. I know I "should" update...but I simply got too lazy =P A little highlight...I"m back to the US of A once again. Returned to the land of the free as my fobby self...oh goody (guess there's never such thing as "you're TOO fobby") Mostly because of my hair i suppose...curly and light...what a great combo. Taiwan was a blast because there's a lack of emotional turmoils this time around...i'm FREE! Plan now? just chilling in LA...enjoying the absolute heat...and be content with my bumming status...it wont last for long. I will be moving up to SF on the 28th. I will however have a little Bday/Farewell pool party thing sometimes in the month of August (further details will be announced in the near future).
Part of the reason why I havent been updating because I have lost my cynical self. Due to experimental reductions and reasonings...I have concluded that my cynicism and to a lesser degree...partial nihilism.. resulted from my hatred for work and my lab. Now that work and lab's over...i'm back to my happy and vivacious self. Don't really have anything profound, insightful, or sarcastic to say. My mind...has been just "blank" lately. I am tired of a lot of things...relationships, family issues, and my so called "deep" thoughts. Perhaps I am just through with Socal...ready for a new life and have a clean slate. Or maybe...because I am happy...with happiness..you're reluctant to reflect on the "life" issues. This is probably why we all need sufferings. When you're constantly happy...you don't learn. You are just emersed in your own positive energy and just want to avoid sadness. You'll only appreciate happiness after you experienced hardships. Otherwise...how would we know what complacency is? Just like..you won't appreciate money if you're Bill Gates' offsprings. You'll only appreciate it when you have lost it or never had it. My past year experience was quite a challenge....but because of all those challenges to my brain and emotions....i start to appreciate this new found "nothingness" and "airheadedness". Placing everything aside...and just enjoying the company of friends and family. It is probably the calm before the storm. Before I fill you guys with complaints about school and all those exams......i'll refrain for now. it'll come in time..no worries! hahah.. afterall i DO rant like a mad supernova!
My first update in a month...and yet...i have nothing interesting to say. To make up for it...i'll end with the following observations.... it has come to my attention that we like to be "fair". whether it's between siblings, co-workers, gf/bf, or shopper vs. marketable labels...we hate to be "gipped". We always like to bargain the best deal we can get and even splitting the bills has to be 50/50. "i love you more than you love me" is often a common phrase we hear in every relationship. "how come you got a bigger piece?" is often a complaint we hear between little kids. With all that said....is there such thing as absolute fairness??? I think fair...is more or less...as long as "I" am not the one getting the lower end of the bargain. It's just a matter of who's willing to forgo their privilege more than the other person. Even if you split pies down the center after measuring with a ruler...how can you be sure it's absolutely perfectly down the middle? Yes you measured with a ruler...but it's bound to be a mm off! There is no such thing as fairness...it's just..."don't gip me". "you win some you lose some" is a saying we all know...but in reality it's more.."i want to win more and lose none". Why do we care so much about being fair when there's no absolute fairness? for the peace of mind? I think it's more a self-fulfilling prophecy and justification for our own selfishness. Using fairness as an excuse to cover up for our selfish tendencies. There's gotta be a winner and a loser...it's just a matter of who is ok with losing a little more than the other person. With that in mind....we all need to learn to just let go.... knowing there's no absolute fairness...as long as we're not gipped too bad, it's all good. For those of you who hate being the loser..just think...with more pie..that person's more prone for illnesses from all the unhealthy sugars the person's consuming...so you win in the long run! die b*tch for eating more pie..mwa ha ha a ha (just an exaggeration to get my point across...in no way is that a representation of what i think about when you get more than me...or is it? o.O)
i ranted as always...i do wanna see all of you before i head to the el-yay (ripped from frank) area. for now...peace out from H-town. Y(^.^)Y (hmm...i guess i do need to get over my fobby self....that's a fobulicious moment right there)
P.S. a shout out to Juan....HAPPY BDAY!!! \(^O^)/
Simple Pleasures in Life
1) Dancing the nite away
2) Finding a guy that can keep up with you on the dance floor
3) Alky buzz
4) Having not a care in the world
5) Checking out a hot guy
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You have just survived one hellish blog. Thank you, the Devil awaits your re-visit..Mwa ha ha ha ha
Part of the reason why I havent been updating because I have lost my cynical self. Due to experimental reductions and reasonings...I have concluded that my cynicism and to a lesser degree...partial nihilism.. resulted from my hatred for work and my lab. Now that work and lab's over...i'm back to my happy and vivacious self. Don't really have anything profound, insightful, or sarcastic to say. My mind...has been just "blank" lately. I am tired of a lot of things...relationships, family issues, and my so called "deep" thoughts. Perhaps I am just through with Socal...ready for a new life and have a clean slate. Or maybe...because I am happy...with happiness..you're reluctant to reflect on the "life" issues. This is probably why we all need sufferings. When you're constantly happy...you don't learn. You are just emersed in your own positive energy and just want to avoid sadness. You'll only appreciate happiness after you experienced hardships. Otherwise...how would we know what complacency is? Just like..you won't appreciate money if you're Bill Gates' offsprings. You'll only appreciate it when you have lost it or never had it. My past year experience was quite a challenge....but because of all those challenges to my brain and emotions....i start to appreciate this new found "nothingness" and "airheadedness". Placing everything aside...and just enjoying the company of friends and family. It is probably the calm before the storm. Before I fill you guys with complaints about school and all those exams......i'll refrain for now. it'll come in time..no worries! hahah.. afterall i DO rant like a mad supernova!
My first update in a month...and yet...i have nothing interesting to say. To make up for it...i'll end with the following observations.... it has come to my attention that we like to be "fair". whether it's between siblings, co-workers, gf/bf, or shopper vs. marketable labels...we hate to be "gipped". We always like to bargain the best deal we can get and even splitting the bills has to be 50/50. "i love you more than you love me" is often a common phrase we hear in every relationship. "how come you got a bigger piece?" is often a complaint we hear between little kids. With all that said....is there such thing as absolute fairness??? I think fair...is more or less...as long as "I" am not the one getting the lower end of the bargain. It's just a matter of who's willing to forgo their privilege more than the other person. Even if you split pies down the center after measuring with a ruler...how can you be sure it's absolutely perfectly down the middle? Yes you measured with a ruler...but it's bound to be a mm off! There is no such thing as fairness...it's just..."don't gip me". "you win some you lose some" is a saying we all know...but in reality it's more.."i want to win more and lose none". Why do we care so much about being fair when there's no absolute fairness? for the peace of mind? I think it's more a self-fulfilling prophecy and justification for our own selfishness. Using fairness as an excuse to cover up for our selfish tendencies. There's gotta be a winner and a loser...it's just a matter of who is ok with losing a little more than the other person. With that in mind....we all need to learn to just let go.... knowing there's no absolute fairness...as long as we're not gipped too bad, it's all good. For those of you who hate being the loser..just think...with more pie..that person's more prone for illnesses from all the unhealthy sugars the person's consuming...so you win in the long run! die b*tch for eating more pie..mwa ha ha a ha (just an exaggeration to get my point across...in no way is that a representation of what i think about when you get more than me...or is it? o.O)
i ranted as always...i do wanna see all of you before i head to the el-yay (ripped from frank) area. for now...peace out from H-town. Y(^.^)Y (hmm...i guess i do need to get over my fobby self....that's a fobulicious moment right there)
P.S. a shout out to Juan....HAPPY BDAY!!! \(^O^)/
Simple Pleasures in Life
1) Dancing the nite away
2) Finding a guy that can keep up with you on the dance floor
3) Alky buzz
4) Having not a care in the world
5) Checking out a hot guy
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